Tuesday, February 28, 2006


I guess this is odd, because I'm posting less than an hour after posting the previous post. Should I have posted this then? Good question, but I can answer that one and say no. Two reasons really, one I wasn't really of this line of thought when I posted said post, and also it serves a purpose I hope.

Over the past month I've posted a few posts, some daily and others weeks apart, but for the main it's been a good month for myself, except of course through out the whole of this month's posts has ran a thread on football. I'm sorry that this place became so obsessive with football this month. Yes, I enjoy the sport, love the sport, love Manchester United, but it isn't the only thing in my life, and yet reading the past month's posts that's what it seems like.

It also makes me think, that it's only when I'm down that I'm creatively active or should I say I'm at my creative when I'm down. I'm not, this whole post has come from reading a paragraph from someone else's blog, I hope she's ok with me about it. She probably won't recognise this though, as it's all my doing, the inspiration was from that paragraph. I know that I can create things when sane and happy, which is probably why it was once thought by my parents that I'd go into journalism, if so it would have been sports journalism, but there you go.

No on reflection this month has been a good one for me in terms of mental health. I've not had any sort of breakdown's though of course I had the little blimp at the start of the month with regards things being said at work. I've got over that and battled on. I've not really felt the desire to walk away from it all and curl up in the corner and cry. That is what would normally happen. Some of the things that I've let pass would have caused major problems in the past. I don't think I'm anyway as moody as I was, but then that's just me. I've got to accept some flak or slack where ever I am, but I should at least expect some respect for what I'm doing and at times I never used to get that, and to a point it's creeping in at work right now, but it's going to stop and stop soon.

That's a deviation from the subject though, this is a closure on the amount of football in my threads. It's only meant to play a small amount in here, this is a blog about me, and how I feel, not about how Manchester United are going on. So with this entry I take out the post about Duncan Edwards and that's that for another year I guess. Well at least to the intensity that I've shown recently. I'm sure I'll find more to write about the Babes next year, I always do find time for the Babes.

Anyway so here we are at the end of the month and on the threshold of a new one, crimes it's the quarter month already. Does it really seem to everyone that we are nearly a quarter of the way through 2006. It's incredible to think that it's so far into the year already and to be honest I don't know where it's gone. As a kid you think that a year is a long time, and in a way it is, but then when you grow older the pace of the year increases and just as you are getting over the previous year it's time to celebrate the end of the new one. Well it does for myself to be honest.

Day of Celebration

Today's a good day, one of celebration for a couple of reason's though primarily it's my mum's birthday, which is the best thing. If it wasn't for my mum I'd not be here writing this, I may be writing a blog, but I wouldn't be me, and that is such a spooky thought. So spooky that it's worth taking 5 minutes or so, and thinking about it. If we are all some sort of spirit led creature, and we inhabit this body and then the next, but with no corrolation as to where and whom, if for example a your mum had met some other guy apart from your dad, or vise versa. How different would things be, where in the world would your spirit had turned up, would it be for the better or worse??

That's today blasted out of the tree now, as I start to contemplate this even further. Still though it's my mum's birthday, we went shopping yesterday and she picked up 3 cd compilation sets, which when bought together came to £10, not much, but I took them paid for them, and she's got her birthday present. It isn't what I wanted, again I was looking for the Sue Thomas biography, but couldn't find it. So it's in a way a stocking filler of a present, but she was playing them yesterday and was enjoying them so much, that I'm kind of pleased with myself.

Other things to celebrate today include the fact that it's Shrove Tuesday today or better known as Pancake Tuesday over here. Though pancakes are becoming more popular throughout the calendar year, it's been the English tradition to only really eat them on Shrove Tuesday, and as kids the following day would be spent comparing how many pancakes you actually ate. Why it became a competition I don't know, it does though and so tonight either after tea or for tea it's pancakes. By being typically English, we'll also get the Lemon juice and sugar out to sprinkle over the pancakes for taste. None of your Maple Syrup or Ice Cream for us over here.

Back onto football now, well almost. Sunday's trip to Cardiff wasn't the best of the 3 trips I've made to that City to watch football, but it was enjoyable and I've got to say that the more the merrier as far as I'm concerned. Yes, it's a nightmare to get out of the place, and yes the roadworks killed us somewhat, but it was a good trip made all the better by United winning the cup..... Which in a way makes today an even sweeter day! 30 years ago today, when I'd be all of 4 years old, Manchester City won this very same trophy, and since then haven't won a single major trophy. Another reason to celebrate today!! So as a mark of respect I'll have sky or laser blue as the text colour....

Saturday, February 25, 2006

The Post wiyh No Name

I need to write something for todays entry, but I'm not going to copy someone else by asking for idea's oh no, I've unintentionally copied that person before and had my my wrist slapped. Mind you had it been a physical slap, I might have enjoyed it a bit more........ Only joking! (or am I?)

There really isn't a lot to say, it's a nice Saturday morning, I'm sitting in waiting for a phone call from someone, to go and collect the minibus for tomorrow's trip down to Cardiff. Earlier this week, the possiblity of me not having a ticket was quite high, but I've got the chance of a ticket right now and I'm not going to pass it over. It's more to do with the fact that it's unlikely I'll get to another final, if I have to get rid of my season ticket for next year. Also, I'm aware that I'll have problems finding the game on tv in the pubs in Cardiff as the Welsh rugby team are playing in Ireland and that means the whole of Cardiff will be showing the rugby instead of the football.

What else is going on in life? Well it's been described in the last messgae as nothing much, but that's cool by me. I'm not going to go on about that again. I think today may be spent relaxing and chilling out. Though I have an idea I may get a phone call from someone to ask if I fancy a pizza for tea. If so I've got an 80 mile drive on my hands. Not that I mind, it's just got to be considered that I've got a long drive tomorrow, and that I'm not going to stay out too late, or as late as I wish.

I've started to listen to They Might Be Giants podcasts, and it covers just about all the scope of the bands music. To this day I don't know why I like the band so much, but they are the most productive and oddest band that I enjoy. I'm glad that I like them so much so for an introduction to the band, I'd recommend that you take a look over at there website, the link is above. Play the free clock radio, it's essentially a random choice of the whole of the bands material as well as live performances of the catalouge.

Friday, February 24, 2006

Holiday Times

Oh how I am glad, here we are Friday afternoon, near enough 15.30 and I'm about to start a holiday. Ok, I'm not going anywhere, but I'm just going to relax and enjoy myself. This week has been busy as we've been short handed at work, but at the end of the day, I've offered my help and done over time to help deal with the situation and now it's time for me to unwind and chill out.

Nothing major to report in terms of my life. Things are plodding along on cruise control right now. Though what is normal for myself isn't probably normal for many people I am still feeling ok. I could be angry, I could be very depressed, but I'm trying tkeep myself at peace, by doing things that I enjoy. No matter what others think, my life is mine to own and not others.

The chill pills must be working, so here I go, got to go to the shops for my mum before going around for tea. I'm not to bothered, but it is her birthday next week, and so I've got to do something next week at the very minimum. I'm thinking of a day out somewhere perhaps with a meal along the way.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

The Tank, The Greatest, Our Dunc.

This is the final day of mourning for the Busby Babes, today marks the final nail in the coffin of the team. 48 years ago today, Duncan Edwards the greatest of the babes, the greatest footballer of his generation and possibly the greatest of any generation died at the tender age of 21.

Duncan was regarded by many as the greatest footballer in the country and had made his debut for the national team at 18 years old. That was unheard of in the day and it took 40 years before anyone took that record off him. I never saw him play, but I don't have to, don't have to watch the footage to know how good he was. No one I've ever spoken too about Duncan, no one I've ever heard talk about him has found a weakness in his game. He was the perfect player, forget Pele, Duncan would have bettered him. Lost at the age of 21....... RIP Duncan, you may have died young, but your legend will never fade away.

Apart from that things haven't been going too bad of late, though of course it's early to say anything like that as I've not been to work today and that can cause no end of problems. I've booked some time off work now, next week and then a couple of weeks at the end of March. I'm looking forward to the break, if only to find some rest and recouparation. I've been feeling incredibly tired of late and that's most unlike me. Still it could be things catching up with me, I'll wait and see.

Sunday, February 19, 2006


I must say I'm sorry for the sporadic nature of the posts in here of late. I've no excuses really, just that I keep putting back when I'm going to write something. The other excuse is that over the past week or so I've been so tired when getting in that I've done nothing but mooch around the web before going to bed.

So what's been going on? Well yesterday for the first time in 85 years, Manchester United lost to Liverpool in a FA Cup game. It means oh so much more to see United lose to them, and more so to see that incredible cup record broken. That wasn't the only thing broken though yesterday. Alan Smith, broke his leg, damaged all his ankle ligaments and dislocated his ankle, all in one go. How did he do that? Blocking a shot plain and simple, it was an ugly injury and for those Canadian's who think soccer isn't a game to get bad injuries look here....
Not pretty and this isn't any vulcanised rubber puck that hit him, but a regular soccer ball. You can only imagine the pain he was in. Let's just say that he needed oxygen before he left the pitch on a stretcher. It's going to be a long time before we see him play again, but we wish him a speedy recovery.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Record Intact

It's now the morning after Valentine's Day and my record is in perfect tact. In the 34 and 4 months that I've been crawling and walking this planet we call home, I've never ever sent or recieved a Valentine's Day card. I must be in a very small group of people who can claim that. I'm very proud of that record, whilst also being very depressed by it at the same time.

All my relationships seem to end before Valentine's day or start just after, so I should be happy that I may strike it lucky soon, but that is doubtful. I've got about as much chance has of the Italian hockey team beating Team Canada at the Olympics today.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Over Due

I'm sorry it's been over a week since the last blog post here, I didn't intend it to be that long. I ended up with problems with my internet on Friday, which prevented me any access over the weekend. I would have added something then, but obviously I was prevented from doing so.

So what was the problem this time? Well the provider did some sort of census survey of the area, as demand for the service is increasing. As I was the first person in this building to use the provider, they linked me with the next doors box. All well and good except that my line out was through them, and identified as that building. As no one, no longer uses the provider next door they simple shut down the line. In other terms the provider disconnected me over the weekend. I'm just a little peeved off as of course the Winter Olympics started and I would have enjoyed watching the games of a morning when I get up, rather than having to wait till I get to my mum's.

Still it's been a good week in many ways, I've sorted my head out to a point, though of course things haven't much improved in many area's, it's just me grinding my way though it all. Now that little spat area is over I need to move on, but till I do, my past will always hurt me.

Monday, February 06, 2006

The Flowers Of Manchester

On this day 48 long years ago the Babes died. I know I've said it before, but even 6 minutes into the day and I'm in floods of tears just thinking of what happened and what was lost.

Here's a site dedicated to the accident in Munich in 58

Please go and take a look, read what you want, and spare a thought for what was considered to be the greatest team that English football had ever seen, and with an average age of 24 had many years ahead of them.

Today will contain many things, but a trip to Old Trafford to pay my respects is one of them. No matter how many years go by, the Babes and those who died that awful day will never be far away from my thought.

R.I.P lads, always in our minds and thoughts........

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Chill Out

Today has been a real chill out day for me, and I mean chill out. I've done nothing, cept eat, get dressed, drink and play on the pc. I only left my flat to put the rubbish in the bin. So it's been really chilled.

I had a bad night last night, but not in terms of lack of sleep, but more to do with me stressing me out again. I some how make sure that I cripple myself with stupid problems. I'm sorting it out, but hell it's nasty.

Well here we are 48 years on from the last game the Busby Babes ever played a 3-3 draw in Belgrade. It was fitting that yesterdays game at Old Trafford was such a good game. I really enjoyed the match, not from a United perspective, but from the perspective of a fan. It had everything and in a way was a throw back to those days of long ago.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Dark Time

Well the internet connection is back up to scratch, and everything seems fine again. They are now claiming it was a system fault in the area and not my modem, we'll wait and see on that one, as long as it doesn't go out again soon I'll be happy.

Well it's the start of a new month, and already a 12th of the year has passed. January has really flown by, and right now it's hard to imagine that it's only 11 months till Christmas again. I say that, as at this rate those 11 months will go as fast as a slap shot. This month is the shortest as well, and without doubt the darkest month. I hate February, it brings pain, hurt and memories. I just plain hate it.

Today's point in history, is a sporting one, and most of the next week or two will be sport based I guess, as I get through the pain of Februray with horrific memories. On this day in 1958, Manchester United's Busby Babes played there last match in England with a 5-4 win over Arsenal at Highbury. This is still regarded by many a football expert to have been one of the greatest games of football of all time. I'm way to young to comment, but it's certainly regarded well up there.